Bluebird At My Window Blog Tour + Review

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Welcome to the book tour for Bluebird at My Window, a dark exploration into the human psyche and deep trauma. Read on for details!

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Bluebird at My Window

Publication Date: February 15th, 2022

Genre: Dark Fiction/ Psychological

When faced with trauma, how would you react?

Would you survive, succumb, or lose yourself to your own meaning of justice?

Ann was only seventeen when she died. She tried to be a dutiful daughter, to pray, to repent. But it wasn’t enough. Her mother, Diane, didn’t mean to kill her but when she found Ann consorting with devils, she had no choice. She believed the angels—that in the end, the water would save them both.

But every choice holds weight.

One death, and Arthur is thrown back into the work he wanted to leave. One death, and Richard must face the reality of his choices. One death, and Maddie and Marie are confronted with the hardest parts of love.

If only good intentions were enough to keep them from the carnage of their own decisions . . .

A dark contemporary fiction drenched in blood, this debut novel from H. Noah has an intricate true crime feeling with psychological depth.

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This book is a deep dive into trauma, psychotic breaks, and how “justice” can be skewed in the minds of those who need help.

The book starts with Diane killing her daughter Ann. She had been torturing this girl Carrie-style for quite a while, as she thought that was the only way to save her and to keep the devils away. She is caught, of course, but Ann was already gone. The two detectives assigned to this case are Arthur and Marie. Arthur was already planning to leave this field as he didn’t think it was healthy for him, but he decided to go against his girlfriend’s wishes and take on this one last case. He quickly becomes very attached to the deceased Ann, truly feeling for this innocent girl who believed her mother and only wanted to make her happy. If the system hadn’t completely failed and forgotten about Ann and her father had gotten custody earlier, she could have still been alive. Arthur devotes almost all of his time to trying to make sure that Diana never sees freedom again, even if it is at the cost of his own social life. Marie does not have as deep of a connection to this case, but she is concerned as she sees her coworker sleep less and less, as well as leaving other aspects of his life behind other than trying to solve this case.

This book really discusses the mind of those going through intense mental issues. Diane never once thought that what she did was wrong. She constantly thought that she was going to save her daughter, get rid of the voices/devils, and keep her family together. Even when she was arrested and in jail, she was still fully in her own head. Her husband knew something was wrong and was trying to get his daughter, but he never could have imagined things going so wrong. I never once really felt bad for Diane in this story, but it was clear that this is what could happen when a person goes through serious trauma and never receives help. She was already struggling internally and then adding that to religion just gave her something to fight against that wasn’t herself.

Arthur was another interesting character who proved that mental healthcare should ALWAYS be involved in a variety of careers. It would have been easier to see that he was deteriorating if he had been expected to speak with someone while working on such an emotionally taxing case. Instead, he was left on his own, and he slowly started giving his whole life into this case. It was almost as if he thought that if he fought hard enough that Ann wouldn’t have died in vain, which wasn’t true. Ann would still be dead, it still would be a pointless death, and punishing her ill mother wouldn’t hurt her any more than she was already hurting from the mental turmoil she experienced 24/7. I really liked Arthur’s character and flew through this story to find out more and more about what happened to him.

Overall, this was a great read that I enjoyed! I would definitely recommend this story to anyone who is looking for a new thriller to try out.

I received a copy of this book and this is my voluntary review.

Overall Rating: 4 out of 5 books.

About the Author

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They’ve been a massage therapist, social worker, poet, teacher, and more. Picking up a B.A. in Criminology and an M.S. in I-O Psychology. They’ve also lived in Alaska, Maine and many places in-between. They are currently still trying to find a forever place as they travel the US.

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